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As so often happens I started the day out feeling great, then tanked about halfway through. Today was SUPER emotionally draining for me, and I didn't really make bad choices, just lazy choices and not much exercise. Certainly not what I planned for the day. I have really been struggling with some aspects of this move and today I intensely experienced both the joy and the sadness, which just left me completely drained. Spirituality is very important to me, and I finally found a church that feels like home. I hadn't realized how much I missed regular services (I'm Episcopalian) nor how much of a relief it would be when I finally found the place that will offer me what I need. I actually spent the last five minutes of the service trying not to let anyone see me cry! What a dork! Also, today is my mother's birthday, and she has not spoken to me since two weeks before I left for Texas--she is so angry at me for moving away from her. I sent her an e-card because I think that is the only way I can get communications to her, but I don't know if she will read it. I realize that not speaking to me is her issue, but she and I used to be VERY close, so this is extremely hurtful and the guilt is difficult to deal with. That being said I decided to take care of my inner little girl, and let her be lazy and nurse her wounds. Tomorrow it's back to work, which means back to routine and I know I will be completely back on track. I will also be over this emotional slump, I hope, 'cause Lord, these journal entries are getting whiny!
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So glad you found a church you like. You are not wimpy! I have tears at church too, especially when I'm in turmoil about something. I'm sorry your relationship with your mom is so strained. Hopefully she will come around in time. It's so hard to be apart from family. Even if she doesn't respond, at least she will know she is in your thoughts and that you love her.
18 ago 08 por membro: KellyBo
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Try not to put too much pressure on yourself, you're doing the best you can and your progress is coming along nicely. It's good to get it out through journalling. I was never one for keeping a journal but since I joined here I found it really helps, especially when strong cravings hit. Writing it down or exercising for 15 mins really helps get me through it.
I know it can't be easy what's happening with your mum but things will hopefully get better soon.
18 ago 08 por membro: ebivr
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I guess sometimes we just have to go with the up's and downs and ride along to the places life takes us. Today took you to a nostalgic, sort of homesick place. Church is so full of memories and promise at the same time. Do you miss home? It is so strange how FOOD reminds us of home when move to a new place. The secret is not to let homesickness take us over the edge or to let a little inactivity become a long term sedentary lifestyle. Take a deep breath and go at it again.
18 ago 08 por membro: Cobra Fan
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I am so sorry you've been having relationship troubles because of this move. You've been so courageous. She'll eventually come around, and things will get better and better. Happy to hear you found a good church, and that you'll be able to find support there eventually too.
19 ago 08 por membro: fraise
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Thanks for your kind words in my journal. It sounds like you are making some changes in your life and they are bound to come with ups and downs - so hang in there! I am currently reading the Tim Russert book "Wisdom of our Fathers" -- it is excerpts of women and men and their insights on their fathers. You may find it interesting to read - I find it enlightening, sad and uplifting at the same time. Wishing you continued success in all of your life's journeys!
19 ago 08 por membro: 4thehalibut
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