Stress beyond stress on Friday and Saturday, but I stayed strong and I didn't cheat eat more than my RDI. I talked it out, then cried it out, beat it out at the gym, then finally 0.25mg Xanax took up the rear. I gave up alcohol, so what else is one to do when things get that bad?
Since I so rarely take the stuff, it took the edge off enough for me to sleep. Sometimes I feel like Life just tests me, then I pass. Then it goes, "Oh you handled that so well! Can you take this?" And it throws me something else five minutes later. Then before I have a chance to recover from that, there's one final icing on the cake. And since I now see icing on cake as poison, it's exactly that - more toxic crap to deal with.
Luckily, no one is terminally ill. No one lost their job. No one is homeless. This was emotional, totally selfish stress. This was all about something Dom wanted, had and loved for 24 hours, then it got taken away from her. Now she is brokenhearted. And it was in the form of a dog I found, thought I could keep, then found out I couldn't. But I loved him. And I selfishly miss him. He was a total lover, snuggler and we bonded instantly. But there are insurmountable issues of practicality that cannot be overcome and we had to part ways. I am, in fact, beside myself for now.
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I'm sorry for how incredibly self-indulgent this sounds to people who have actual problems like lack of money and no job. But for me, the unconditional love of a dog is the best best thing ever because it makes one forget about all the other problems like money and jobs and somehow makes the rest of life worth living.
Still, the silver lining is that I triumphed because a year ago, I would have been buried in bad food to suppress these emotions and this time around, I just felt them. It was hard, and it hurt. But I'll get over it. And I wanted to share to my FS friends that emotional eating can be controlled and it can stop. I did it.
In case you don't know this about me yet, animals are my Achilles heel. Don't get between me and my pets unless you want to meet a pissed off Mother Grizzly Bear. The whole cute Mrs. Mole thing flies out the window then!
Thanks for listening.
P.S. The poisoned icing one the cake I referred to earlier (because all of this wasn't enough for one day) is that I now also have a massive hemorrhoid as of yesterday, the day I had to give up the puppy. All of the recent straining has paid off in the form of this lovely gift. So yay! Does anyone have a rock big enough for someone about 219 pounds to crawl under for awhile? I'll pay rent...!
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99,1 kg
Perdidos até agora: 27,9 kg .
Ainda faltam: 31,5 kg .
Dieta cumprida: 100%.
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1218 kcal
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Líp: 38,73g | Prot: 52,11g | Carbs : 141,77g.
Pequeno Almoço: Arbonne Vanilla Protein Shake Mix, Starbucks Mocha Frappuccino Light. Almoço: Jack in the Box Regular Beef Taco. Jantar: Watermelon, Apples. Snacks/Outros: Dried Prune. mais...
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it is always hard to lose a friend, and isn't a dog man's best friend?
It is ok for you to feel pain, you didn't numb it by eating you dealt with it, and for that i am proud of you as a buddy. ***
It is the good example you set for all of us, that i am used to of you ;)
the devil comes in 3's,
13 abr 14 por membro: puhpine
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I'm sorry you were not able to keep your special friend. Here's to no more icing for you and to something good happening to lift your spirits. And way to go on not giving into emotional eating. Your strong will is a great eaxmple for many of us.
13 abr 14 por membro: ChicaLean
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Sorry, that's hard. I'm a softee for animals as well. Have 2 pups I just chased off my bed for wrestling. Hard to drink that 1st cup of coffee with them.
13 abr 14 por membro: wholefoodnut
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Have to laugh. Love the P.S.
13 abr 14 por membro: ClassicRocker
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As a dog lover, I totally understand. I'd be lost without my Collies, they are my best friends, and they are my family.
13 abr 14 por membro: Barbara4572
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Live with just my pups and a crazy chatterbox bird who begs for treats. I had let them back in sooner than usual after a quick romp in the yard this am because of a thunderstorm. Course it was playtime for them of course on top of me! Bird loves crunchy Cheetos but begs for anything when I cook and has to have a homemade dog treat when I come home from work. If he doesn't get his after work treat he yells at me. Luckily parrots like people should have a varied diet of whole foods.
I understand mrsmole's' sorrow. Have given lost pets back have also ended up with several abandoned ones. One old beagle who we found scared to death loose on a 4 lane highway who when we stopped jumped in the car and snuggled on my daughter's lap. We tried to find the owner ended up with that sweet dog till she we found her dead outside one sunny day about a year later. Vet had estimated she was at least 15 when we took her in.
13 abr 14 por membro: wholefoodnut
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You had him for 24 hours. That's a gift to him. Remember him. Cuddle your own. I think perhaps my dear friend Dom is getting edgy and needs a little stress relief. Is there a quiet lake you could go and sit at? That always helps me. Of course, that' a 5 minute drive for me to be completely alone. I mean... walk off went 1 mile and nobody would run across you for a year. You need a vacation. hugs
13 abr 14 por membro: northernmusician
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13 abr 14 por membro: Deb_N
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((((HUGS)))) to you! It is funny how quickly we get attached to some pets. Hope you are feeling better tomorrow, and good for you for not overeating!!!
13 abr 14 por membro: JeanineDS
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I get it, I found an 8 mo Bassett named him, trained him, he became family with us and our other dogs and after two months or so the owner was found by a vet. I cried, I could tell he was not a good pet owner. It hurt. I have a dog hotel, and love them all ( well, almost all...LOL). You should consider adopting one, there are so many that need love. :)
13 abr 14 por membro: Ginsin
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I'm so sorry that you have to endure this pain. I will keep you in my prayers.
13 abr 14 por membro: Kris AZ
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So sorry for the stress and pain. But...also glad for your success over emotional eating. J
14 abr 14 por membro: JovialJ
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Hugs and prayers for you. I love my pets too. They're part of our family. I'm proud that you are still in control despite this.
14 abr 14 por membro: ZivaDavid11
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