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This is a "down" day for me with all that is going on in my personal life and the impending funeral of my BIL - but I won't use it as an excuse to carb medicate. Instead, I will let the sorrow wash over me and go through all the stages of loss without my usual crutch. I will remind myself again and again, that "this too shall pass".
I've been so consumed by other things that I have not been able to be here daily to update my food diary and my journal - but that's OK right now. Soon, I will need to get back to that daily standard because it is so helpful for me to understand the impact of this WOE on my life. Not to mention the encouragement and support I get from the friends I have made on this site. It's coming up to my one year LC anniversary on October 23rd. I must confess that I thought by now I would have been at my "goal". However, as I continue to transform through this journey, I realize that achieving a pre-determined goal in a certain timeframe is actually not the real point of this process. The most important point is to find that unique formula for myself, that allows me to attain health and wellness. I call it "Finding ISH". I am still on that journey and so it's not surprise that I am still pursuing my "goal" weight. What I know for sure is that it is critical to be recalibrated as this process evolves or I will likely find myself right back where I started - 230+ lbs and very unhealthy. So I accept where I am right now and will renew my commitment to LC eating and learning. I also embrace the squiggly line of progress, knowing that I will get there even with all the detours. I know that every detour is a lesson that will teach me something that will help me understand my "ISH" (aka the unique formula for my life). Keep the focus friends - we will all get there! Have a great day!
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