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Don't know why tracking is SO HARD - I really have no excuse, but I just drop it sometimes. I'm trying to get back into it this week, but I didn't finish yesterday's tracking. Why? Probably because I feel a little guilty - we went out to eat at Cheesecake Factory. The family was celebrating some good news, and yes I indulged myself WAY TOO MUCH! Spagetti with meatballs followed by Godiva chocolate cheesecake. I couldn't eat all of it, but the damage was done. I still got on the treadmill for about an hour last night.
So, I woke up this morning thinking "I need to go on a 3-day fast to make up for last night." Probably won't happen, and it's probably not a good idea. But you know what's even more difficult? It's trying to reconcile the desire to lose weight with the need to not slip into self-loathing for last night's excess. I mean, what's the point? Hating myself has never helped me lose weight. I read 2 articles this morning. One was about an actor who had been pretty buff, but at one time got very depressed & put on a lot of weight. He's since gotten it off again, but someone out there in the Twitterverse posted his "before" & "after" pics together. He got online and was very critical, saying he was so depressed at the "heavy" time and almost suicidal. I feel bad for him, really, and the original tweeter apologized, saying mental health is not a laughing matter. No kidding!
The other article was on the idea of "my size" instead of "plus-size," and featured some women who've made headlines for being models that weren't the "skinny" variety. And yeah, some of the comments were less than supportive. Yeah, some of these ladies are overweight/obese, but you know, you're not going to lose 100 lbs overnight, it takes time. Again, there needs to be some kind of constructive balance between self-acceptance and self-improvement. I don't think the message is so much "let's establish a new beauty standard for obese people," as it is just a positive message that you can do more with your life (including lose weight)if you stay positive instead of slip into negative self-loathing. I mean, I can and have hated myself for failing to lose 20 lbs many times. It is only recently when I've actively worked to develop a more positive self-image that I've lost any weight at all. I could easily hate myself for the 13 lbs I still need to lose, but what good would that do? It will not help me lose weight, probably just the opposite. So, whether the fat-shaming comes from me or someone else, it just needs to STOP. NOW.
Having said that, I probably could stand to NOT be so critical of the skinny actresses as well; mean-spirited guilty pleasure that it is, haha.
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1486 kcal
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Líp: 51,99g | Prot: 65,11g | Carbs : 205,06g.
Pequeno Almoço: Harris Teeter Blueberries, Blue Diamond Almond Breeze Unsweetened Vanilla Milk, Kashi GOLEAN Original Cereal. Almoço: Cheesecake Factory Godiva Chocolate Cheesecake, Dinty Moore Hearty Meals Beef Stew. Jantar: Mahatma Natural Whole Grain Brown Rice, Healthy Choice Cafe Steamers Simply Chicken & Vegetable Stir Fry. Snacks/Outros: Dove Whole Cherries Dipped in Dark Chocolate, Fuji Apples, Luna Luna Protein Bar - Chocolate Peanut Butter. mais...
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