During my high school years, I constantly struggled with my appearance, wanting to diet and be "thin". I wasn't really ever chubby, but I'm stocky, and have a lot of muscle naturally. I namely kept in pretty good shape because of marching band through all those years.

Then came college. Then came the internet. Also throw in an emotionally difficult relationship and break up into the mix.

I went from 145lbs to 195lbs over the course of about 5 years.

As of joining this site, I'm considered obese. I'm pretty out of shape... BUT my health is in good shape and I still have a good deal of muscle mass.

I'm not going to say that being my size is a horrible and terrible thing. I've learned a lot while being this size. Being this weight does not mean that you're a fat horrible slob. Fat isn't really such a scary or horrible thing as everyone makes it out to be.

What one chooses to do with their body is their own choice.

Namely, I'm on this site to get into shape and change my lifestyle into a healthier one. I just honestly want to get to a state which is healthy and maintainable for me.

My overall goals are:
- Get used to making healthier food choices. Find YUMMY stuff that's good for you.
- Gain a lot more muscle than I've had ever.
- Be able to jog / ride my bike and go up hills without getting winded.

I'm not so much concerned with losing x number of pounds or fitting into a set of numbers. I do have a few goals though:

- Lose about 30lbs of fat (or more, whatever happens to my body happens, I don't want to stress over 15-20 lbs that won't come off)
- Wear a size L.
- Go down 2 cup sizes.

BEGINNING STATS:
Height: 5'4"
Weight: 190lbs
Bust: 45"
Waist: 40"
Hips: 42"
Clothing Size: Anywhere from XL-XXL / 14-16

I've weighed as much as 205lbs and I wore as large as size 18, but I've gone down a bit. I've also managed to go down to 175lbs a few years ago, but I didn't keep up with the plan.