Enough! Basta! No more!
I say this as I disgustedly push away my half-eaten bag of pita chips and the bean and basil hummus dip.
It has been a food-fest and a binge attack in the last couple of days that's increasingly getting worse!!! Concurrenly, the weight on the scale is getting more and more...and in conjuction, my motivation, energy, and strength is loooooming down as I watch those numbers and as this heavy feeling of fullness after high-carbs, OD-ing on food, and total abandonment of ww points-sysstem washes over me....I find myself spiraling downward.
Just when I thought I'm never going down that mindless eating, no working out path again!! Well, I am in the orange zone, and time to kick up some motivation. Fight those cravings.
I love myself more than all of that. I like my body and am not going to let it go down the path of self-destruction!!! I like the great feeling of control and euphoria related to working out, and the wonderful compliments I get when I'm looking my best. No food is worth any of that!
The facts that caused my derailment: Started with that indian-food dinner on Saturday (no, earlier, the winetasting perhaps on Thursday), and then I had a party at my place yesterday..and as a result, I've just let myself go. Too much of eating and too much of drinking. This morning, I woke up at 6.30 am, and was planning to go workout at 8 am. Instead, I came across the party-leftover pita chips in my cabinet, and decided to have a couple. Well, one thing led to another, and I'd finished the bag, and felt too full, and decided that workout ain't happening this morning. In fact, it hasn't happend all day. This is truly a shame.
And in two days flat, I seem to have forgotten the whole system!! I can't remember what made me not want any of this junk for the last few months. I can't remember how I push myself and go to the gym so reguarly. I can't remember how I typically don't do mindless munching--haven't done it in a few months now--so how can I so quickly lapse into the old habits and forget the more recent ones??!
I really can't understand, though, how this can happen? I mean, I'd thought with all this points-business, I was actually quite satiated with the fewer calories that I've been eating daily. I thought my stomach had shrunk. And also, I thought mentally I'd be disgusted with such vile out-of-control behaviour. So, how coudl this heppen? I'd think it would be physically difficult to eat more if you're not used to doing so!
Well, this is an important lesson. I am not out of the woods. And probably will never be. Like the recovered alcoholics, I'll always need to watch for triggers and make sure I don't succumb. All the great habits and mental resolve can effectively crumble just like that (snap of fingers). On top of that, I can't let stress affect my judgment---this week is lots of deadlines and it's stressing me out, so I'm reaching for the avoidance tactics, i/e., stuffing my face, browsing the internet, and avoiding working or working out!!!
Well, the honeymoon-from-hell is over! Back to my wonderfully carved out life and schedule. I'm going to keep working until I meet the deadlines. I won't do any socializing until Friday evening. I should probably skip the big wine festival on Saturday to catch me back on speed with my weightloss. I really need some good news on the scale--it's depressing me and sending me downwards otherwise. So, I'll need to carve out some changes that will ENABLE the weight-loss to happen this week. So I'll see the results. And so I'll want to continue to be good. That is the whole postive cycle I want to create.
Ok, so that's it. 1) No obvious carbs this week (the negligible amounts in veggies, dairy etc. is fine, but no pasta, bread, crackers, chips etc.).
2) No drinking ALL week & weekend
3) Working out at least 120 minutes daily (an hour in the morning and an hour in the evening--my old schedule of gym-time in the morning and walking in the evening).
4) Lots of water--at least 3 liters, and
5) the rest of the day: very focused work (no distractions).
6) I'll reward myself by going out on Friday (good, clean fun with a baseball game--we've got bleacher tickets), and on Saturday (shooting pool). I'll skip all other alchohol-related events, ie., my wine-group's social on Sat afternoon, the big international wine fest on Sat evening, and the sports-pub on Sunday afteroon...
Today's meals: Countless points!! 1.5 bag of pita chips, several tbs of the hummus dip chick pea curry (several helpings) Rotini pasta with chick peas, olive oil and parsley (several helpings) Redeeming thing: I haven't touched the big box of chocolates or the muffins sitting in my fridge--haven't even wanted to.
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You're right on. We must be constantly vigilant until we reach goal and only then can we cut ourselves some slack. That sounds worse than I intended. I just know that lack of motivation hits me too. Wanting to dive into a bag of chips or maybe potatoes! hits me too. A small reward now and then but if we want results, we have to earn them, right? Don't let a couple of bad days get you off track completely. Climb back up on the horse and run!
23 jun 08 por membro: kimbulie
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international wine fest..you are planning to give that up?...if you have international guys coming over...DONT CANCEL! (I have a one track mind sorry!!)LOL..just kidding..you are been very proactive about your situation and I am glad you are been so strong about it. You had a bit of naughty fun eating on the wrong side but I know how disciplined you are so you will get back on track. Just keep going strong babes...you can do it!! (P.S. Well done for not eating the chocolates and muffins..that was the most delicious and sinful out of the lot...!!) DIETING MEIN YEH HI HOTHA HAI..KABHI KHUSHI KABHI GHUM!
23 jun 08 por membro: caged liberty
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Thanks guys :) Also, CL, hilarious comment about the KKKG (it's like our code language! ;)) But, yeah, KKKG--our philosphy for Bollywood and in weight-loss process :) (KInda like Kimbulie's old philosphy for tartar sauce, was it? );)
23 jun 08 por membro: 08willbegreat
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Are you and I trapped in the dieting twilight zone? I had a day from hell, too! Ugg. But enough about me... I hear you on all levels there, girl. You are not the first to have this happen, nor will you be the last. And you are SOOOOO right about having to be forever vigilant and not letting down your guard. It's amazing how easily the old habits can creep right back in. Ok. Let's pull up our sleeves and do this together... again! I'll lace my fingers together and give you a boost back up on the wagon and you grab my hand while I throw a leg up on the wheel....
23 jun 08 por membro: evelyn64
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Have no fear, Bad Andee is here! She'll save you from your wicked ways! (as long as she doesn't choke herself on her ugly long cape!) :) come on friend...you've pulled yourself out of this nose-dive with that check list! Now I challenge you to stick to it! I know how you HATE it when I get on your case (she sent me hate mail that last time I intervened, ya'll!!) LOL
But SOMEONE has to keep your car on the road! yer wreckless with those chips! And having your cheeks puffed up from storing them kinda makes you look like Alvin the chipmunk! (I know he's cute, but that's besides the point!) say this saying to yourself 5 times every morning in the mirror; "get er' done!" but you have to sound like the dude that made that saying famous, ok? Then burp and scratch in indescribable places, and HIT THE GYM!! peace out homie!
24 jun 08 por membro: BadAndee
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Its true me darlin', we are all just one mouthful away from surrendering to a gorge-fest. But just keep thinking of that birthday present that you want to give yourself in September..draw that oul line in the sand, draw strength from the words of wisdom above and off we go again.. onward and upward - you are still in great shape, so you are, and there is nothing better than that sense of 'empowerment' that comes from getting back on track... you know that you can do it.. smiles... so lets do it..
24 jun 08 por membro: dave22
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Hi 08' =) Summer time is always a hard time for me to stay on track...with all the get togethers and summer foods....it just feels like a time to party! Here is the name of a really good seasoning we found in the grocery store for indian food...you can make really low fat, healthy veggie options (instead of using the suggested olive oil, we typically put in Veggie Broth in stead - if it calls for 1/4 cup oil, we do 1/2 cup veggie stock). The name is called Arora Creations. If you can't find it in your stores, there is a website on the packet: aroracreations.com (There is no MSG, gluten free, diabetic safe, low sodium and nut free - according to the package). The ones we have tried so far, and love are: Bhindi Masala and Gobi. We plan on having Punjabi Chhole tonight. Another thing we love too, is at Trader Joes (I hope you have one near you!) they have this great tasting Prig Thai Style Green Beans, that is soooo yummy! Typically we cook it up, and add shrimp (but you could add tofu) and make it a complete meal, and such low points! Hope some of these suggestions help you. Sometimes finding some other options or new things to try helps kick start getting back into the swing of things. Hang in there, you have done amazing so far, and your photos and weight history are proof!
24 jun 08 por membro: Cheeks
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Thanks you guys:)!! I loved all the wonderful advise, the great new recipes, the new mantra (with the accent included!)! BTW, BadAndee, are you hanging out with Dave more and more? Your "accent" is starting to sound like his! ;) But once again, thanks to all of you---I'm feeling better today(even though the weight is up another 0.4), but I know some of it is water, sodium, chick peas, sugar from the wine, and with some good sweat-dripping exercise, I'll be able to get back to the pre-weekend weight at least, and then keep going from there.
24 jun 08 por membro: 08willbegreat
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