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Morning, loves! Thank you for the comments on yesterday's journal. I had my cake, and I ate it too, and now I have no more cake lol. I'm no fool, I only bought four portions for a reason ;-). I tend to get frustrated when the word 'diet' gets thrown around. Dieting is associated with shots of vinegar before every meal, meal replacement shakes, never eating real food, constantly being hungry, and ultimately failure. I am not on a diet. I have a diet, of course, but I'm sure you understand what I'm saying. However, because of my weight loss everyone assumes I'm on a diet, and I hate that. "Ohhhh, Yolanda, what are you doing... atkins?" NO! drives me crazy! And of course, that ties into the whole cake dilemma because nobody knows if they should get cake for the girl on a diet. No one can sabotage me, I am un-sabotage-able because I'm not on a diet. I am losing to live, not living to lose. One time at my grandma's house we were having pie or something and I got up to get a slice and my daughter says "mom, are you allowed to eat that?". I love my daughter, but I could have strangled her within an inch of her life in that very moment. She knew damn well that I eat whatever I want, she was just being a dick. Of course then everyone looks at me with accusing eyes, like I'm breaking some sort of a law. I simply replied "I do what I want". That was that. It's just interesting how no one looked twice when I was 286 going for thirds, but now I'm breaking rules? Silly society, mind your business. Okay, I am officially done with the cake rant!! :-)
Lets talk deadlines! This is another thought that has floating around my mind. A while ago I was talking about going out to eat here or there and a friend commented that they would never do that because it would set them back a couple weeks. I was confused, set you back from what?? We all have goals, I get it. Goals are good, they keep us motivated and moving in the right direction. "I would like to lose seventy-five pounds in three months, and I'm going to do it by only eating raw meat and running twenty hours a day. " Well what happens when your three months are up and you only lost thirty pounds, do you not get to participate in the reindeer games? Are your thirty pounds deemed not good enough and now you are a failure? In my opinion (I fully understand there will be people who disagree this is your journey and you can do it however you like) too much emphasis is put on how much you're going to lose by 'deadline'. I wanted to lose one hundred pounds in one year, I didn't. I was disappointed, but eighty pounds was good. Nobody voted me off the island, my husband still thought I was beautiful, my FS friends still thought I did great. I made mistakes that year, I chose to go out to eat or to drink wine, and I had a damn good time doing it. I also emotionally ate, and learned how to move forward from that. I enjoyed the journey, which is the most I can hope for seeing how short life is. My advice to anyone starting on a long weight loss journey is to stop staring at the pot of gold in the distance thinking of how great it will be when you get to it. This moment right here is great, this moment is beautiful. Love it, stop selling it short.
Wow that was intense, right? It's been an emotionally charged few days lol. Yesterday was no good for me. All things food... ended up in my mouth. First emotional eating episode I've had in a long time. Today will be better.
Had to kill a raccoon yesterday, poor thing was all sick and wandering around in the middle of the day. I have a dog and kids, my neighbors have dogs that run around off leash so I aired on the side of caution and disposed of the poor little booger. He was very sick, looked to be slowly starving, I probably did him a favor before a coyote got ahold of him, but I feel real bad about it. (We have A LOT of coyotes) I buried him in the back yard next to my beloved puppy, Romeo.
So that's about all I've got. Thanks for taking time from your busy day to read the insane ranting's of an overstressed young woman lol.
Hope you all have a wonderful day!
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I love the way you speak about your attitude to losing weight. I agree with you - too many people set unachievable goals then consider themselves a failure even when they've actually done pretty well. Have a great day :-)
08 abr 14 por membro: Phooka
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Good one Yo! Glad you had your b-day cake! Now get out and run 1.1 miles! Good job on the running, it gets easier every time out!
08 abr 14 por membro: aggie95
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Great journal kiddo. I was reading and reflecting on something I saw Sunday at the Cheesecake factory - and yeah, I was thinking about you as you didn't get to go. I didn't eat the whole slice but I did have an extra bite of pineapple upside down cheesecake in your honor. A couple at a table next to Grace and me were eating, and yes, they were above average weight, and were enjoying the heck out of it. Now, the couple behind them and across from us - they were eating also but slowly and less portions and I could see them (because they were in direct eye view of me) looking up at the other couple and then leaning closer and whispering. I couldn't overhear them so I was just 'guessing' based on body language and eye focus that they were judging, shaming, whatever. At one point the guy judger got up and went to the restroom and on his way back he passed behind the larger guy and bumped into his chair - totally unnecessary because he had plenty of room. I almost lost it as I'm in 'stop the fat shaming' mode. He startled the larger diner than set down and commented on it to his dining companion. I am one of those people who on 'What would you do' would be sticking up for the 'victim' and was trying to sort it all out on 'was this bad enough to go ballistic on a stranger in public'. It wasn't even an immature thing - the 'bumper' was a grown mature man. I guess where I'm heading with this and should have put it in my own journal but I just got started and my fingers won't stop typing is there is so much ... crap, unnecessary pressure, whatever... out there with regard to weight. People like your family thinking they are 'helping' by reminding you of what you already know and live and think about every waking hour of your day 'am I making the right food choice for me today.' Would we have listened as we extra caked our way up the scale? Did they say anything? Were their looks, bumps, buying us one size too small, etc., were they there all the time and we ignored it? Are we more aware of it now because we're just more aware of everything related to all things food? I don't know - it just seemed a conversation I'd like to have and your journal sparked it in my only one cup of coffee so far this morning mind. LOL. Sorry for this - feel free to delete it if you don't want it loading up your journal. Have a good day,
08 abr 14 por membro: FullaBella
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You are so right about the deadline rant. I really needed to read that this morning.
08 abr 14 por membro: 2ManyCurves
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You've done so well and have done it all on your own steam, and it's refreshing to see that. So many people think that because you lose or even maintain your weight that it's because of some crazy diet or exercise routine. Why can't it just be because of good ol' healthy eating and regular exercise? People don't believe it. You're proof that it works. You're right too about expectations and learning to be happy with what we've accomplished, not disappointed because of our failure to reach a goal within a certain amount of time. Allowing ourselves to enjoy the journey without a clock ticking is so much better. Love this journal!! Well, minus the poor dead raccoon, but at least you put him out of his misery.
08 abr 14 por membro: mars2kids
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People want to hear there is a "magic" formula to make all that pesky weight go away, and when ya tell them its hard work and discipline, they dont wanna hear THAT! lol
08 abr 14 por membro: notjune1
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I also had no idea that fat shaming was so rampant, either. I have seen it where I am, but mostly among "loved ones" of the overweight person and not so much strangers. I am APPALLED at the stories lately about fat shaming total strangers. :(
08 abr 14 por membro: notjune1
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Yolanda, you are an amazing, wise and insightful woman.
08 abr 14 por membro: Vickie 5966
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I'm kind of the same way. I can't focus on a number just to focus on a number, or on dieting. I just want to make changes to be healthier, and I do hope the by-product will be a slimmer me, even if I never get to my goal weight. I don't do deadlines either. My ultimate goal is simply to be able to go Elk Hunting in November, and not feel like I'm dying trying to carry my back-pack up a hill.
08 abr 14 por membro: tempest_spirit
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Have a great day Yolanda and keep doing what you're doing because it works.
08 abr 14 por membro: LadyBea40
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I agree if I want a cookie or cake, I will have a cookie or cake, as I know what I'm doing and no one really needs to be reminded! They aren't the ones trying to get healthier by how you are eating so why should they have a say.
08 abr 14 por membro: M.H.
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Sanctimonious idiots are the bane of our lives - always know better than us for what we should eat or wear yet they're still the ones who need a JCB (UK for mega-digger) to get them into their stretchy leggings or load up their 3rd or 4th helping of pudding. I've found in the past that those who are comfortable with their size (be it 28 or 8) are the most supportive when you're trying to change your life for a healthier YOU. Ignore the idiots and revel in your husband's love ;-)
08 abr 14 por membro: Phooka
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